He thought he was reckless before, but he understands now—holding love off was the only thing keeping him from losing himself in this completely, and he's gone, stupid, lovesick, a fucking disaster.
他以前以为自己鲁莽了, 但现在他明白了——阻止爱情是唯一能让他不至于完全迷失自己的办法,而他已经走了, 愚蠢,,一场他妈的灾难。